Wow, last day of February, already!
Like I've already said, February's been shit, but this weekend was the perfect way to end it. :)
I spent the whole of Saturday with my lovelylovely Maria, on search for fireballs HAHA. ;) & Then seeing as we were staying at Maria's and she'd promised that she'd show me where Peter lives, we decided to go on a walk, with him. (I still didn't find out where he lives!) It was quite fun actually, we weren't out for very long though, tbh. So, we went back to Maria's and we decided to straighten Peter's hair and do his make-up... He looked beautiful. ;) We started to watch Silent Hill & I missed all of the best bits 'cause i fell asleep! D': & well, we decided to watch drag me to hell, too & Peter decided to stay over.(: It was a funfun night with 2 of my bestest friends. :)
In the morning though, I was in quite a bad mood, and I was trying my very best to hide it, but, Peter knew that something was wrong, so, then I just let it out (anger) so that I'd feel better, all this whilst Maria was still asleep (snoring! LOL, bless). It worked actually, made me feel a bit better.(: But, tbh, thinking about it, I don't even know what I had to be in a bad mood about, 'cause I'd just had a reeeeet good night with them twooo. & we had some nommy CHICKEN! ;) lmfao. i looooooove staying at Maria's it's always very funnn(: & i love them both very much. :)
<3
Sunday, 28 February 2010
Saturday, 27 February 2010
tadarrrrr.
So, it's a new day.
Feeling a lot better than I was lastnight. I'm not even going to go into that.
So, I've had enough of people posting facebook status' about one another, about me, whatever. I'd post one sayting this, myself, but that'd be a tad hipocritical. If you've got something to say, just come out and say it to whoever it's aimed at. It's not hard. Or if you feel like taking a night off from being a bitch, just don't say anything at all. Simple as that, really.
Today should be fuuuuuun(: Off to meet Maria in a bit, sleeping at her's too. I think we should go on a 'venture to Peter's house. tbh ;D Then I'll finally know where he lives! :D
umumummmmm, what else? I can't think of anything now. so, i guess i'm donee xDD
Feeling a lot better than I was lastnight. I'm not even going to go into that.
So, I've had enough of people posting facebook status' about one another, about me, whatever. I'd post one sayting this, myself, but that'd be a tad hipocritical. If you've got something to say, just come out and say it to whoever it's aimed at. It's not hard. Or if you feel like taking a night off from being a bitch, just don't say anything at all. Simple as that, really.
Today should be fuuuuuun(: Off to meet Maria in a bit, sleeping at her's too. I think we should go on a 'venture to Peter's house. tbh ;D Then I'll finally know where he lives! :D
umumummmmm, what else? I can't think of anything now. so, i guess i'm donee xDD
Friday, 26 February 2010
fucking sick.
I'm so sick, of feeling like i do, feeling down, all of the time. and I wouldn't normally be writing this, but, tonight, i just keep n bursting out crying. and i don't know what to do, because.. well, i just don't. i need serious help, i really do.
26.02.10
yaddaaa. I actually don't know what to write, today, really.
February's nearly over... Already? uuuh, the days are going too fast. February's been shit, though. So, good riddance to it. I'm hoping that March is going to be better. (Y)
I don't like myself, atm. 'Cause I've started being somebody who i don't want to be. I've been feeling down a lot lately, and i don't want to do that. I want to be happy. But, it feels like there's something in the way of it. I don't know, it's probably just my negative thinking all of the time. But, yeah, the 'somebody who I don't want to be' is mainly because USUALLY when I'm feeling down or whatever, I can hide it, 'cause it USED to be easy.. but now I can't so well, and, I don't know, When I am feeling down, my friends have been seeing this. And i SWEAR... before I would NEVER let a mood affect how I was with a friend. neverever, but, recently i have started doing this, & I just don't want them to worry about me, tbh.
All of this is a bit negative. D': But, everything seems to be getting better... Slowly but, SURELY. I'm just determined to get back to normal again. I'm surprised I've not ran out of tears, lmfao.
ON A MORE POSITIVE NOTE!!
Can't wait for tomorrow(: Meeting up with Maria & a few of her mates. Then sleeping round at herrrrrrs for the night.Should be a laaaauughh(:
Oooooh, I'm really excited for YMAS with Mitch, Kelsey, Leah & Rosie It's come up right fast, and soon it'll all be over and done with, it's gonna be amazing.
& I'm feeling rather gay, So, I'm going to write... Mel, Mitch, Maria & Peter... They're absolutely amazing. The bestest friends that anybody could ever wish for tbqh and I'm actually really glad that i have the privilidge to call them my BESTfriends. I'm ever so grateful to all of them, for helping me out, for all the advice and, tbh, just for putting up with me. It may sound so very cliche, but, I honestly don't know what I'd do without them or, where I'd be. I sound proper soppy, haha, and none of them are probably going to read this, but it needs to be said tbh. I love them all, millions. & I've lost a few friends in my lifetime, but, I honestly hope that I NEVER have to lose them. 'Cause I really honestly don't think that I could live without them, now. MEGA LOVES. <3
I've written quite a lot to say that I didn't know what to write. ;)
PEACE!
February's nearly over... Already? uuuh, the days are going too fast. February's been shit, though. So, good riddance to it. I'm hoping that March is going to be better. (Y)
I don't like myself, atm. 'Cause I've started being somebody who i don't want to be. I've been feeling down a lot lately, and i don't want to do that. I want to be happy. But, it feels like there's something in the way of it. I don't know, it's probably just my negative thinking all of the time. But, yeah, the 'somebody who I don't want to be' is mainly because USUALLY when I'm feeling down or whatever, I can hide it, 'cause it USED to be easy.. but now I can't so well, and, I don't know, When I am feeling down, my friends have been seeing this. And i SWEAR... before I would NEVER let a mood affect how I was with a friend. neverever, but, recently i have started doing this, & I just don't want them to worry about me, tbh.
All of this is a bit negative. D': But, everything seems to be getting better... Slowly but, SURELY. I'm just determined to get back to normal again. I'm surprised I've not ran out of tears, lmfao.
ON A MORE POSITIVE NOTE!!
Can't wait for tomorrow(: Meeting up with Maria & a few of her mates. Then sleeping round at herrrrrrs for the night.Should be a laaaauughh(:
Oooooh, I'm really excited for YMAS with Mitch, Kelsey, Leah & Rosie It's come up right fast, and soon it'll all be over and done with, it's gonna be amazing.
& I'm feeling rather gay, So, I'm going to write... Mel, Mitch, Maria & Peter... They're absolutely amazing. The bestest friends that anybody could ever wish for tbqh and I'm actually really glad that i have the privilidge to call them my BESTfriends. I'm ever so grateful to all of them, for helping me out, for all the advice and, tbh, just for putting up with me. It may sound so very cliche, but, I honestly don't know what I'd do without them or, where I'd be. I sound proper soppy, haha, and none of them are probably going to read this, but it needs to be said tbh. I love them all, millions. & I've lost a few friends in my lifetime, but, I honestly hope that I NEVER have to lose them. 'Cause I really honestly don't think that I could live without them, now. MEGA LOVES. <3
I've written quite a lot to say that I didn't know what to write. ;)
PEACE!
Wednesday, 24 February 2010
Life(:
Soooo, I've not written in here for ages. AGAIN.
Well, Life's a bit shitty at the moment, isn't it? I did something that I reallyreally regret lastnight, but no worries, it's in the past.
I'm just quite worried about all the bitchiness in our 'friendship' group. yes inverted commas, 'cause it's not really like a friendship at all, anymore. & yeah, it's partly my fault, i know this, because of the break up with Zak or whatever, but TBH, it doesn't excuse all the bitchyness at all the little things. & NO, i'm not saying it's aimed at me, 'cause most of the time it isn't. I just wish that if people had things to say, to one another, they'd say it to eachothers faces, not behind their backs, and not hiding over facebook/msn. and i know that in the shortrun, this'd probably be bad, 'cause it'd create a lot of arguments. but, SURELY, it's better than all of the bitchyness?! I'm just sick of it tbh, most of it is just fucking Petty! but, yeah, in the long run, it's probably be better, 'cause things would get sorted out. 'cause tbh, i do love them all, to bits, if im honest, i just can't stand all of the bitching anymore. & yeah, i've just had a mini rant, probably 'cause Peter isn't online for me to rant at :P LOL.
Yeah, I just wish all of that would end. 'cause it just feels like our 'friendship' group is split into two parts at the moment. and YES, i know why that is, but can't people just be civil?!
&, tbqh, i don't understand why people get jealous/pissy when i put 'mel,mitch,maria,peep; i love you 'nuff said' Isit because i don't mention them?! isit because they think i don't love them?! SURELY they do it too! SURELY they have BESTfriends too, 'cause that's what they are, my BESTfriends, and they're ALWAYS there for me. no bitchin' between us lot, is there? NOOOO!
Well, anyway. apart from thaaaat. life is gooooood! i've got my AMAZING bestfriends, who are always there for me, and always support me, i couldn't ask for any better bestfriends tbh. love them to pieces (: <3
Well, Life's a bit shitty at the moment, isn't it? I did something that I reallyreally regret lastnight, but no worries, it's in the past.
I'm just quite worried about all the bitchiness in our 'friendship' group. yes inverted commas, 'cause it's not really like a friendship at all, anymore. & yeah, it's partly my fault, i know this, because of the break up with Zak or whatever, but TBH, it doesn't excuse all the bitchyness at all the little things. & NO, i'm not saying it's aimed at me, 'cause most of the time it isn't. I just wish that if people had things to say, to one another, they'd say it to eachothers faces, not behind their backs, and not hiding over facebook/msn. and i know that in the shortrun, this'd probably be bad, 'cause it'd create a lot of arguments. but, SURELY, it's better than all of the bitchyness?! I'm just sick of it tbh, most of it is just fucking Petty! but, yeah, in the long run, it's probably be better, 'cause things would get sorted out. 'cause tbh, i do love them all, to bits, if im honest, i just can't stand all of the bitching anymore. & yeah, i've just had a mini rant, probably 'cause Peter isn't online for me to rant at :P LOL.
Yeah, I just wish all of that would end. 'cause it just feels like our 'friendship' group is split into two parts at the moment. and YES, i know why that is, but can't people just be civil?!
&, tbqh, i don't understand why people get jealous/pissy when i put 'mel,mitch,maria,peep; i love you 'nuff said' Isit because i don't mention them?! isit because they think i don't love them?! SURELY they do it too! SURELY they have BESTfriends too, 'cause that's what they are, my BESTfriends, and they're ALWAYS there for me. no bitchin' between us lot, is there? NOOOO!
Well, anyway. apart from thaaaat. life is gooooood! i've got my AMAZING bestfriends, who are always there for me, and always support me, i couldn't ask for any better bestfriends tbh. love them to pieces (: <3
Thursday, 11 February 2010
HATEEEEE
Why does all the bad things happen to me?! :'(
if it wasn't bad enough just breaking up with my boyfriend... but finding out the REAL/other reasons... Kissing other girls?! :'( That's classed as cheating, right?! I'm fucking gutted. :'( I don't know what to do for the best. I'm a mess. I Really don't know what to do. This is the most horrible feeling in the world.. The most pain i've EVERR felt. :'( ON THE SAME FUCKING WEEK AS VALENTINES DAY :'( OMFG :'( i hate my lifeee!!!! :'( :'( :( :(
if it wasn't bad enough just breaking up with my boyfriend... but finding out the REAL/other reasons... Kissing other girls?! :'( That's classed as cheating, right?! I'm fucking gutted. :'( I don't know what to do for the best. I'm a mess. I Really don't know what to do. This is the most horrible feeling in the world.. The most pain i've EVERR felt. :'( ON THE SAME FUCKING WEEK AS VALENTINES DAY :'( OMFG :'( i hate my lifeee!!!! :'( :'( :( :(
Thursday, 4 February 2010
04.02.10
So, it's February, already. Where's the time goingg?!
Hmm, So February's been shit, too. I've not had many happy things to write about, have I? Haha.
Well, My boyfriend keeps being all OVERjealous of this other lad, who's my BESTFRIEND, and that's ALL he is, my bestfriend. And, well, TBH, I'm getting sick of everybody thinking that me and this lad are in love with eachother, Because we're blatently not. I chuffin' ADORE Zak, I really do, He's abs great. But, It feels as if he's making me choose between the two of them.. and that's actually something that I'm not willing to do. I love Peter, He's my best friend, he's one of the people who's ALWAYS there for me, no matter what. & I love Zak he's my BF, I'm not IN love with him, but i do care about him, god. Why are people so judgemental? :(
Hmm, So February's been shit, too. I've not had many happy things to write about, have I? Haha.
Well, My boyfriend keeps being all OVERjealous of this other lad, who's my BESTFRIEND, and that's ALL he is, my bestfriend. And, well, TBH, I'm getting sick of everybody thinking that me and this lad are in love with eachother, Because we're blatently not. I chuffin' ADORE Zak, I really do, He's abs great. But, It feels as if he's making me choose between the two of them.. and that's actually something that I'm not willing to do. I love Peter, He's my best friend, he's one of the people who's ALWAYS there for me, no matter what. & I love Zak he's my BF, I'm not IN love with him, but i do care about him, god. Why are people so judgemental? :(
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