26.02.10

yaddaaa. I actually don't know what to write, today, really.
February's nearly over... Already? uuuh, the days are going too fast. February's been shit, though. So, good riddance to it. I'm hoping that March is going to be better. (Y)
I don't like myself, atm. 'Cause I've started being somebody who i don't want to be. I've been feeling down a lot lately, and i don't want to do that. I want to be happy. But, it feels like there's something in the way of it. I don't know, it's probably just my negative thinking all of the time. But, yeah, the 'somebody who I don't want to be' is mainly because USUALLY when I'm feeling down or whatever, I can hide it, 'cause it USED to be easy.. but now I can't so well, and, I don't know, When I am feeling down, my friends have been seeing this. And i SWEAR... before I would NEVER let a mood affect how I was with a friend. neverever, but, recently i have started doing this, & I just don't want them to worry about me, tbh.

All of this is a bit negative. D': But, everything seems to be getting better... Slowly but, SURELY. I'm just determined to get back to normal again. I'm surprised I've not ran out of tears, lmfao.

ON A MORE POSITIVE NOTE!!
Can't wait for tomorrow(: Meeting up with Maria & a few of her mates. Then sleeping round at herrrrrrs for the night.Should be a laaaauughh(:

Oooooh, I'm really excited for YMAS with Mitch, Kelsey, Leah & Rosie It's come up right fast, and soon it'll all be over and done with, it's gonna be amazing.

& I'm feeling rather gay, So, I'm going to write... Mel, Mitch, Maria & Peter... They're absolutely amazing. The bestest friends that anybody could ever wish for tbqh and I'm actually really glad that i have the privilidge to call them my BESTfriends. I'm ever so grateful to all of them, for helping me out, for all the advice and, tbh, just for putting up with me. It may sound so very cliche, but, I honestly don't know what I'd do without them or, where I'd be. I sound proper soppy, haha, and none of them are probably going to read this, but it needs to be said tbh. I love them all, millions. & I've lost a few friends in my lifetime, but, I honestly hope that I NEVER have to lose them. 'Cause I really honestly don't think that I could live without them, now. MEGA LOVES. <3

I've written quite a lot to say that I didn't know what to write. ;)
PEACE!