30 days 'til Christmas!

Hey, so, I just came across my blogspot, haha, I've not written in this since June? That's crazy. I guess I've kinda moved onto Tumblr, now. http://eeeinahpets.tumblr.com/ But, I reckon I'm still gonna keep this, just incase I need a proper rant that I want hardly anybody to read, paha.

ANYWAY, a LOT has happened since June.... Wow, I can't even be arsed to tell you, really... I finally got my lip pierced, though! :)

I kinda like this lad? But, trouble is, I think this other lad kinda likes me? & he got all pissy and whatnot about it yesterday, I was like looooolwudafuuux? See, I wouldn't actually mind if he was all pissy and mardy with me if he'd actually TOLD ME that he likes me, but, he's actually not, but, he still gets pissy. Dyumm.

ANYWAY, again... It's only 30 days 'til Christmas... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mcmirFseM_E I'm ded excited! :D

I probably won't even write in this until after Christmas, haha, So, if anyone is actually reading... Have a good Christmas. (:

I'm sick of everybody thinking I'm some kind of rich kid. :S Just because I don't get EMA doesn't make me rich... I actually ENVY you guys. I'd go more into it, but, I really cba, but, srs, this summer I've got NO money to do anything, yet you think I'm rich? ehhhh.

fml

Okay, so I'm propper pissed off with hipocrites. Have a go at you for doing something.. then do it yourself? Oh, so it's okay when YOU do it? But, not when I do?!
I'm telling you, I wouldn't even be bothered AT ALL if this group weren't being such hipocrites. Gosh. They should know better than this and I will laugh. HARD. when it fails. 'cause it will. :) good luck 'crites.

06.06.10

Morning(:
So, I got up this morning and the house is empty. |: Where's everyone gone?! lmfao.

Hmm, back to college tomorrow, I really can't be bothered... But, then again, it's only until Wednesday. ^^ That's my last exam, then the summer is MINE! except from this art project, but, ah'well.(:

Max

I love this picture of Max, it's soooo adorable!

(:

Well, again, it's been a while since I wrote on this. O:
Hmmm, so, I reallyREALLY can't wait until the winter. Offfs to see Paramore with Mitch&MAria... then the month after I'm off to see YouMeAtSix again with Maria. :D I'ma so excited! <3

So, yeah, I've got quite a few things to look forward to, atm. ^^ OBVIOUSLY, youmeatsix¶more. :) & also, in a week or so, I'm off to Alton Towers with Melmel(: aand a week after that going to a party at Maria's! Going to be a bit fun, even though the race for life is a day after. D':

One reason why I'm so excited is cause after next week I'm not going to have any exams left. :) Media next week, 2 and a half hour exam ¬¬ but, it's my last exam! goodtimes, much? :)

I WANT MY LIP PIERCED!! :L

home alones.

I've not written on this for ages. o:

So, today my mum and dad have gone on holidaaay and left me home alone.. with the brother. doh. ¬¬ I’m already bored out of my brains. o: —Should be fun, though. Maria’s staying over tonight and I’m stayinbg at Mel’s a few days next week. ^^

So, since the last time I wrote on this, I finally got to see Youmeatsix LIVE! It was pretty amazing. (: Also, got to see the blackout & Kids In Glass Houses, again. ^^ Got to meet the lovelylovely Aled Phillips. (:



Also, it's been my 17th birthday & Mitch's 16th. Had some pretty fun times, tbh.

Ahh' This month is looking GREAT ;) Going to Skeggy soon with the parents, Mitch, Maria & ickle Amber. (: Also, all of my lessons are FINALLY ending and my last exam is on the 9th of June. ;) woohoo, 3Month holiday? yes! <3

25.03.10

So, today has been alright. Break time was a bit fun(: Daniel made a cake for Immys birthday and we gave her gifts and stuff :)

Hmm, i feel shit :) shitshitshiiiittttt. just generally about everything. mainly about myself.. but about others too. hmm.

Tomorrow should be fun, staying at mel's :DDDDDDDD <3

02.03.10

so, hard decisions coming up...
whether to stay at hillsborough and do what im doing now, next year... or to move to norton and do something completely different?
iknow which one i'd prefer tbh. but i know which one, im more likely to do. these decisions are hard... -.-

28.02.10

Wow, last day of February, already!
Like I've already said, February's been shit, but this weekend was the perfect way to end it. :)
I spent the whole of Saturday with my lovelylovely Maria, on search for fireballs HAHA. ;) & Then seeing as we were staying at Maria's and she'd promised that she'd show me where Peter lives, we decided to go on a walk, with him. (I still didn't find out where he lives!) It was quite fun actually, we weren't out for very long though, tbh. So, we went back to Maria's and we decided to straighten Peter's hair and do his make-up... He looked beautiful. ;) We started to watch Silent Hill & I missed all of the best bits 'cause i fell asleep! D': & well, we decided to watch drag me to hell, too & Peter decided to stay over.(: It was a funfun night with 2 of my bestest friends. :)
In the morning though, I was in quite a bad mood, and I was trying my very best to hide it, but, Peter knew that something was wrong, so, then I just let it out (anger) so that I'd feel better, all this whilst Maria was still asleep (snoring! LOL, bless). It worked actually, made me feel a bit better.(: But, tbh, thinking about it, I don't even know what I had to be in a bad mood about, 'cause I'd just had a reeeeet good night with them twooo. & we had some nommy CHICKEN! ;) lmfao. i looooooove staying at Maria's it's always very funnn(: & i love them both very much. :)
<3

tadarrrrr.

So, it's a new day.
Feeling a lot better than I was lastnight. I'm not even going to go into that.
So, I've had enough of people posting facebook status' about one another, about me, whatever. I'd post one sayting this, myself, but that'd be a tad hipocritical. If you've got something to say, just come out and say it to whoever it's aimed at. It's not hard. Or if you feel like taking a night off from being a bitch, just don't say anything at all. Simple as that, really.

Today should be fuuuuuun(: Off to meet Maria in a bit, sleeping at her's too. I think we should go on a 'venture to Peter's house. tbh ;D Then I'll finally know where he lives! :D
umumummmmm, what else? I can't think of anything now. so, i guess i'm donee xDD

fucking sick.

I'm so sick, of feeling like i do, feeling down, all of the time. and I wouldn't normally be writing this, but, tonight, i just keep n bursting out crying. and i don't know what to do, because.. well, i just don't. i need serious help, i really do.

26.02.10

yaddaaa. I actually don't know what to write, today, really.
February's nearly over... Already? uuuh, the days are going too fast. February's been shit, though. So, good riddance to it. I'm hoping that March is going to be better. (Y)
I don't like myself, atm. 'Cause I've started being somebody who i don't want to be. I've been feeling down a lot lately, and i don't want to do that. I want to be happy. But, it feels like there's something in the way of it. I don't know, it's probably just my negative thinking all of the time. But, yeah, the 'somebody who I don't want to be' is mainly because USUALLY when I'm feeling down or whatever, I can hide it, 'cause it USED to be easy.. but now I can't so well, and, I don't know, When I am feeling down, my friends have been seeing this. And i SWEAR... before I would NEVER let a mood affect how I was with a friend. neverever, but, recently i have started doing this, & I just don't want them to worry about me, tbh.

All of this is a bit negative. D': But, everything seems to be getting better... Slowly but, SURELY. I'm just determined to get back to normal again. I'm surprised I've not ran out of tears, lmfao.

ON A MORE POSITIVE NOTE!!
Can't wait for tomorrow(: Meeting up with Maria & a few of her mates. Then sleeping round at herrrrrrs for the night.Should be a laaaauughh(:

Oooooh, I'm really excited for YMAS with Mitch, Kelsey, Leah & Rosie It's come up right fast, and soon it'll all be over and done with, it's gonna be amazing.

& I'm feeling rather gay, So, I'm going to write... Mel, Mitch, Maria & Peter... They're absolutely amazing. The bestest friends that anybody could ever wish for tbqh and I'm actually really glad that i have the privilidge to call them my BESTfriends. I'm ever so grateful to all of them, for helping me out, for all the advice and, tbh, just for putting up with me. It may sound so very cliche, but, I honestly don't know what I'd do without them or, where I'd be. I sound proper soppy, haha, and none of them are probably going to read this, but it needs to be said tbh. I love them all, millions. & I've lost a few friends in my lifetime, but, I honestly hope that I NEVER have to lose them. 'Cause I really honestly don't think that I could live without them, now. MEGA LOVES. <3

I've written quite a lot to say that I didn't know what to write. ;)
PEACE!

Life(:

Soooo, I've not written in here for ages. AGAIN.
Well, Life's a bit shitty at the moment, isn't it? I did something that I reallyreally regret lastnight, but no worries, it's in the past.
I'm just quite worried about all the bitchiness in our 'friendship' group. yes inverted commas, 'cause it's not really like a friendship at all, anymore. & yeah, it's partly my fault, i know this, because of the break up with Zak or whatever, but TBH, it doesn't excuse all the bitchyness at all the little things. & NO, i'm not saying it's aimed at me, 'cause most of the time it isn't. I just wish that if people had things to say, to one another, they'd say it to eachothers faces, not behind their backs, and not hiding over facebook/msn. and i know that in the shortrun, this'd probably be bad, 'cause it'd create a lot of arguments. but, SURELY, it's better than all of the bitchyness?! I'm just sick of it tbh, most of it is just fucking Petty! but, yeah, in the long run, it's probably be better, 'cause things would get sorted out. 'cause tbh, i do love them all, to bits, if im honest, i just can't stand all of the bitching anymore. & yeah, i've just had a mini rant, probably 'cause Peter isn't online for me to rant at :P LOL.
Yeah, I just wish all of that would end. 'cause it just feels like our 'friendship' group is split into two parts at the moment. and YES, i know why that is, but can't people just be civil?!

&, tbqh, i don't understand why people get jealous/pissy when i put 'mel,mitch,maria,peep; i love you 'nuff said' Isit because i don't mention them?! isit because they think i don't love them?! SURELY they do it too! SURELY they have BESTfriends too, 'cause that's what they are, my BESTfriends, and they're ALWAYS there for me. no bitchin' between us lot, is there? NOOOO!

Well, anyway. apart from thaaaat. life is gooooood! i've got my AMAZING bestfriends, who are always there for me, and always support me, i couldn't ask for any better bestfriends tbh. love them to pieces (: <3

HATEEEEE

Why does all the bad things happen to me?! :'(
if it wasn't bad enough just breaking up with my boyfriend... but finding out the REAL/other reasons... Kissing other girls?! :'( That's classed as cheating, right?! I'm fucking gutted. :'( I don't know what to do for the best. I'm a mess. I Really don't know what to do. This is the most horrible feeling in the world.. The most pain i've EVERR felt. :'( ON THE SAME FUCKING WEEK AS VALENTINES DAY :'( OMFG :'( i hate my lifeee!!!! :'( :'( :( :(

04.02.10

So, it's February, already. Where's the time goingg?!
Hmm, So February's been shit, too. I've not had many happy things to write about, have I? Haha.
Well, My boyfriend keeps being all OVERjealous of this other lad, who's my BESTFRIEND, and that's ALL he is, my bestfriend. And, well, TBH, I'm getting sick of everybody thinking that me and this lad are in love with eachother, Because we're blatently not. I chuffin' ADORE Zak, I really do, He's abs great. But, It feels as if he's making me choose between the two of them.. and that's actually something that I'm not willing to do. I love Peter, He's my best friend, he's one of the people who's ALWAYS there for me, no matter what. & I love Zak he's my BF, I'm not IN love with him, but i do care about him, god. Why are people so judgemental? :(

30.01.10

Wow, January is nearly over, already. Time flies, tbh.
Well, I've had a crap couple of days, actually. I've been arguing with Zakk waaaaay too much. I know it's mostly my fault, but, it's how I am, how I have always been and I can't change... Even if i wanted to, i probably couldn't. Ergh, I'm a bit sick of the insecurities and the jealousy, though. But, I suppose it is MY fault. I dunno WHY I am so close with other boys, they're like my bestfriends, though. I would NEVER do anything to hurt Zak, and tbh, I just want him to know this. & He doeesss know this, but yet, the jealousy or whatever seems to continue. :( :( :(

:)

So, this week's been fun. Spent quite a lot of time with r'Zakkkyyy, he's abs great. :)
I'm feeling a bit ill at the moment... well, I wouldn't call it being ill, haha. I feel a bit bad, 'cause i kept getting really annoyed at people today. So, I'm sorry if I took anything out on anyone.

:)

It's been ages since I wrote on this, again.
Hmm, So this weekend was one of the best ever, tbh. On Friday, I went to the TwentyTwenty gig with Mitch, Maria & Kia. It was absolutely AMAZING. Met all three of the band and everything, they're lovely. Sonny is GORGEOUS. :)
After twentytwenty, Mitchell and myself slept at Maria's and we made a birthday cake for Mel's birhday, was a great night, tbh. Really fun! We were bare tired the next morning though, and we had to go to mel's, it was fun though. We were singing Grace Kelly. ;)
Then, that night, I decided to have Maria, Kay, Zak & Graham sleep over at mine, because on Sunday them lot & Mel & Peter & myself all went to London. It was an absolutely AMAZING day. Lots of shopping... Just lots of fun tbh, was baree tired for the next day at college though.
Was a great weekend. :)

15.01.10

Not wrote on here in a few days. I'm single again, but, it's all good I suppose, even though the new years resolution of making a relationship last didn't go to plan THIS TIME. Well, I don't think I'll be getting a boyfriend anytime soon anyway, 'cause tbh, I don't actually really want to be in a relationship at the moment. The only thing I miss about them.. is kissing :P yumyum. But yeah, I don't like all of the hassle that they bring..
Anyway; I'm off college ill today O: boohoo. haha, be alright, I've had my youmeatsix album to keep me company, it's AMAZING tbh, I can't stop listening to it!
I'm really looking forward to next week; on Friday I'm going to the TwentyTwenty gig with Mitch, Maria & Kia then we're sleeping over at Maria's. Then on Saturday me and r'Mitchieee are going to go round to Mel's house, bearing gifts and whatnot. Then on Sunday Mel, Maria, Kay, Peter, Zak, Graham & Myself are all going to London for the day, I reckon it'll be a right laugh :)
<3

2010

Morning, or, Afternoon, rather. :)
So, my 2010 so far has been absolutely wank. Well, I must admit, it's not all been bad.. but it's only been 9 days and i'm already beginning to think it's going to be as wank as the last!
Well, anyway, i've got a boyfriend. His names Tom (it's a different Tom to last time!) haha. He's lovely tbh, been having a few problems though... We keep arguing, and TBH I know it's all my fault, I keep getting pissy with everybody because I'm having a few problems with this other lad, I can't believe that I did what I did, I probably should've left it more time, given him more time...
Bless him, but now it's just come to the point where it's an annoyance, where it's just upsetting me and making me angry all of the time, and for some gay absurd reason, I keep taking it out on Tom. Maybe because it's like a relationship issue? It's actually putting me off of relationships, and it's really not fair, because i'm IN one, and i'm not really feeling too good about it.
So, I FINALLY went back to college on Thursday (it'd been closed Tuesday and Wednesday because of the snow.) and tbh it was great to see all of my college friends again that I haven't seen in ages! That dinnertime was one of the funnest ever, with snowball fights and whatnot. It was great. :')- Friday was also great, Went out in photography (me, Immy & Milo drinking Gin) :') Haha, me and Milo are such lightweights. it was fun though, don't think I'll be doing it again any time soon. :')

2010 :)

Hmmmm. so, i haven't written on her in.. AGES!

well... it's beeen, since... november? i don't remember haha.

i can't be bothered to write about November, really. it was crap haha. December was also crapp. until the end :) Christmas.

-- the Christmas holidays have been amazing tbh. So, the 1st thing i did in the holidays was go to see paranormal activities with mel, mitch, maria, peter, graham & zakk. It was a laugh actually (: even though the film was really boring, it wasn't as good as everyone were making it out to be, it still was kinda creepy though. ALSO, this girl decided to shit me up by screaming reaaaallllyyy loudly in the middle of it :')

--Hmmm, then there was Zak's partyy, that was amazinggly funny! :') was great. funniest thing was when Daniel downed half a bottle of vodkaaaa....... haha, funtimes. yeah then 4 of us (me, mel, maria, daniel) all tried sleeping in one bed, it really didn't work, haha. in the end it just ended up me mel and daniel. :')

Christmas '09 was amazing tbh, it's been the best Christmas so far, actually. I had an amazing day with mummy, daddy and sam. Finally got my iPod, and got loads of other great presents. it's been great. I'm feeling kinda sad that it's all over soon, though, really. back to college on Tuesday.

-- sooooo, 2010 is looooking really promising, tbh. :)

I've got a few new years resolutionss;

-make a relationship LAST.

- eat more healthily.

- dont be so lazy.

- keep up with college work.

- i had another.. but i've forgot it :P

so, i'm looking forward to tomorrow :) i'm going to Town with r' Tommy Donzleee.... :P yeeeeah,.... XDXD!

hmmm, we're off to London soon :) there's 10 of us going for Mel's b'day and i'm really excited!! :D but 1st is YOUMEATSIX album, hold me down. going on a little 'date' with Mitchieeee, to go and get it ;) haha. Then, twenty twenty giggg. then YMAS gig later on the year.. 2010 is gonna be great :) can't wait actually.

1st blog of 2010. and it's mega long ;)

peace out.<3